These past few months have been filled with obstacles. My family and I have experienced heartache, confusion, and joy.
More importantly though, we've all learned what it's like to completely fall in love with a family. It's unreal how God orchestrates and puts people into your life. You could be close to those people for years and not know exactly why they're are in your life and then all of a sudden in a matter of less than a year His plan explodes.
While I believe and know that God is good, and His plan is always perfect, I find myself questioning Him. I recall times where I've just sat and cried, yelling at Him and asking Him how He could let things happen.
Why does He let tragedies happen? That question raced through my mind so many times. It tore me apart and made me absolutely miserable.
Instead of trusting Him, I worried myself to tears. What good does that do?
Have you ever had that moment where you stop and realize that you're an idiot? That all your worrying and frustration was just an attack of Satan and your own selfishness? That if you would have just given all your worthless burdens to our Heavenly Father He would have comforted you.
I have.
Bad things are going to happen. God is going to test us and put us through trials that we never thought would happen to us. As a kid whenever someone would die or get super ill, I always thought God did that cause we were bad & He was punishing us.
But that's not the case at all.
He's doing it because He loves us. Sometimes He wants to get our attention. And sometimes, He wants us to seek Him so that His glory can be shown.
Psalm 32:8 I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go: I will guide thee with mine eye.
I've learned that whenever I stop thinking of myself, when I stop thinking I can control things, and when I give up everything to my Creator...is when His glory shines. His flawless plan begins to reveal...
And the best part is, it isn't over.
I want to die knowing that I fulfilled my purpose on this earth, serving & living for my Savior. If I'm constantly thinking I know it all I won't be able to do that.
I'm ready to start living, fighting, and giving everything to Christ.








