I really didn't want this blog to become a personal diary for me. I would rather have it be somewhere I can express my opinions and thoughts on certain subjects, without going into my personal life.
This week though...I don't know what's gotten into me.
How would you describe the term "friend"? It's just a name, a label, for somebody who is very close to you, right? Somebody who you open up to, tell your darkest secrets & fears to. Someone who will listen to you ramble for hours and hours about nothing in particular. That person you call up on the tele at 3 AM to talk to because you can't sleep. A friend.
Where do you draw the line of a friend, to an enemy? Or, should I say...What happens when this so-called "friend" is accusing you of things you never did or said. How do you deal with the fact that this "friend" is telling lies about you to others, or lying straight to your face? Do you approach the person, or do you let it go & let God handle it? And, can this friendship ever be mended?
I struggle with this so much. Being friends with someone for your entire life & then one day...They're talking about you behind your back. You're hearing things about yourself that you didn't even know & certainly aren't true. Rumors are spread, lies are told & hearts are broken. Judgmental statements are spit in your face, and you're hearing things you never even dreamed about hearing.
“Blessed are you when others revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you. —Matthew 5:10-12
As I was laying in bed this morning, with my KJV Bible spread across my lap, (Which btw- is falling apart. It's time to pull out some duct tape & fix her up) I read this verse & found extreme comfort in it.
I don't know if others are dealing with the same issues I am, but I feel as though this is something all Christians go through.
If people (or should I say "friends") talk about me then fine! Let the rumors fly! I know who I am & I know that one day, I get to see Jesus and party with HIM in Heaven. I don't need to tear up other people's lives and hurt them. That is not my job because the only person I have to answer to is Christ,..... oh, & my parents.
I'm praying that God will give me a peace throughout this. So far, He has. Without Christ, I don't exactly know what things would be flying outta my mouth towards those people. It's almost as though He's clamped a hand over my mouth so I won't blow up. He's basically saying "Shut up, Hayley. I've got this."
And, He proved that He's got it under control by showing me that verse this morning. :)
If anything, I leave you with words of encouragement. Just pray, no matter what the issue. Ask, & you shall receive. Trust me, you will. God has provided me with comfort beyond words & feelings.
Life is g o o d.
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